I like the Chogyam Trungpa. A good writer.
It looks like I was having some mud on June 8, partly due to more books. The additional books no longer cause mud.
I have had some ordinary times. Post beginner’s enthusiasm. There is the useful sense in Buddhism that you can use everything. You can use the most boring shadow of a disappointment.
I have been able to consistently journal, maybe for the first time ever. I make an entry every day. It’s easy. So far today’s entry says “June 21”.
I had my first boring, ordinary depression, my first depression really, since I started meditation. The depression started Sunday and ended earlier today [Friday], I think. It was indistinguishable from fatigue. I knew Saturday that it was going to start Sunday. I was moderately productive and high-functioning during the depression.