I’m realizing that many times I have caught myself thinking/feeling something like, “But I want to be a Buddhist in a better world. I don’t want to be a Buddhist in some crappy, worsening, dead-end world.” To think of things this way is of course perfectly contrary to Buddhism. (There might be some good news in this.)
And with regard to that of course, we must remember we always have the option to see what is actually happening, what we are actually doing. There are many things that are obvious, and that we know, quite easily, but we don’t always avail ourselves of that knowing. We don’t ask ourselves, what is honest here? What am I now knowing? What do I see if I let myself know what I know? What if I avail myself of all my knowing, all my understandings?